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(no subject) [Aug. 14th, 2007|05:05 pm]

#1 win the lottery...

lol that's my list
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(no subject) [Mar. 26th, 2007|01:44 pm]
i am really missing everyone lately; i mean i have for a long time. I think about you guys a lot, but i have missed you all a lot more recently. I would like to say hey to some you guys and show you my baby girl. She is full of personality. she needs attention all the time though. She tires me out most every day, but i love her. Me and molly are doing really good too. I mean we have our little arguments. 

close your eyes now if you don't like to much info, but it takes some women a long time to bounce back from having a baby. I could really go for some good old sex, lol. That is one thing that sucks right now, i feel distanced from molly because we aren't very intimate anymore. We practically just live together, and i really hope that changes.
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(no subject) [Feb. 2nd, 2006|05:11 pm]
So i have floated back, only for a short stay. Long enough to write, just to say hi. I wonder how everyone is doing? Life... as an adult, some might be able to have things the same or close to it, but none the less big change. I really feel like explaining what it feels like to be an adult, but i know that no one wants to hear it, and you will know soon enough.

I see some people that are out of hich school still find time, sorry i can't. I miss you all. School, work, and gf not much time left, if any. I definately don't get as much sleep as i used to. I listen to coldplay to keep me going. Molly helps keep things fun, even though there isn't much time for fun.

I have decided i am going to major in automotive, well get a certificate. I will prolly finish and get a degree after i have started working. I hope to get my first job in my career by 2008. Hopefully in the first few months of the year.

I kind of miss the "pointless drama". I guess inside i am still the same person, i still feel the need to try and be all deep when i am writing or self reflecting. On the outside i have had to grow up and just take things for what they are.

later oogle,
hope to see some of you around or something
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(no subject) [Oct. 21st, 2005|01:17 am]
so i haven't had any responses for a while not that i write anything important. If you want tell me what you think.

I prolly seem dramatic and full of myself (how horrid my problems are), but if I don't do things like this I can't be me. It is either all locked up or all out. I can't do anything in between. People tell me I look sad empty some even say emotionless. I guess since, i started work that has slowly been what I have been becoming. I know whinning and crying all the time gets old but it's better than empty... Since i dumped Molly like 2 months ago i have been digging to get myself out, my emotions back. Now i have a hold and it's to late it seems, but only time will tell.

I want to let you in
all the things i did
can we begin again

I'll take your answer either way
just how you feel today
I'll take your answer and if i have too walk away

before i go, i want you to know
I could spend all day, everyday
just me and you

It may have took me a bit
to realize what i wanted
but now that i do,
it's got to be you

I aint giving up
but i'm tryin to make sense
and i'm tryin not to be dense

but what is happenin here
come back to me my dear
I know it isn't clear

but I wont let you down
you'll never feel alone again
I'll always be around

and i'm cryin
cryin cryin
till i can't see at all

cause i dont' think you understand,
our futures in your court
and you have the ball

Your scared i wont be here for your support
your scared i wont feel
your scared i'll drift away within
but what i say is for real

so please let me down
I'm hanging here
and your the only one
who can put me on the ground
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(no subject) [Sep. 14th, 2005|02:39 am]
I successfully dodge all picture action at binzer's party, hell yeah. I don't take good photos so i'm happy, but there are some cool pictures and some i am wonder why were takin, but meh.

So... my burn. Turn out today when o took off the blister, I was burned even further down. When i first burned myself i smacked my hand against my pants cause of the hot grease stuck to my hand. Then a layer of skin came off. then later the next layer turned into a blister. The blister got messed up, so i got rid of it. then i didn't look at the skin below to much but it looked slighting white, kinda like a blister, on a little bit looked that way. Then i stuck my hand in my sleeve to scratch my arm and the sleeve rubbed my burn. taking off another layer of skin. I think i burned myself pretty badly, and it huuuuuurrrrts, lucky for my i have some burn cream that takes away pain, bad thing is i still feel the pain a bit. IT IS SOO ITCHY TOO I WANT TO SCRATCH IT BUT MORE SKIN WILL COME OFF IF I DOOOO, IT'S DRIVING ME MAD!!!!
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(no subject) [Aug. 25th, 2005|12:42 am]
Oh yeah i heard something about a lindsey and sarah play, I don't member when it is let me know.
If it aint a play then something along those lines. Hehe i am bad can't even member one simple thing.
soooo, life is boring, especially when you don't have a girlfriend anymore. No don't feel bad,
it is for the better i mean i didn't really really like her but she really really liked me so...
it just hurt her to keep going out with someone she knew didn't care as much.
So i did her a favor to help her get over me faster which can't happen till we are over with.
She said she was prolly going to dump me anyways so she isn't to mad, but she did cry when i did it.
She was being a major bitch the night after but i was like... i deserve it so i just took it.
Then she got it out of her system or something and now she wants to be friends and we talked
for like an hour after work and she was actually laughing, so i don't feel as bad, I'm still an ass though.
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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2005|03:08 am]
SO I'm like totally wide awake and i have work early in the morning, but by early i mean eleven. I really wish i could sleep i tried for an hour but something is stuck in my mind. I saw someone today and I can't help but remember the past. Prolly why I don't see them anymore, but i would like to talk with them just one more time, atleast one more time before another long break.
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(no subject) [Jul. 31st, 2005|12:55 am]
oh my god i totally banked tonight,
i was making tips like mad,
I got a 5 dollar tip once.

I made 25.65 in tip money
I think that about 1/8 of the total
cost of the food i took out was my tips
1/8 that is fucking good
I took out 212.56 dollars worth of food if
I remember correctly.
I worked for a little over 4 hours
cause i got off a little after 10:30
and i had a little over 1hr break
I got to work at 5 o'clock.
So i get tips ontop of my cooking wages which means
I made a shit load of money per hour tonight.
I made like 12 dollars an hour tonight.

Alright i am sure your done hearing about that, but...
I have no life right now, so not much to talk about
atleast nothing you all would want to hear.
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(no subject) [Jul. 27th, 2005|04:26 am]
[mood |pensivepensive]

the world goes on
and the path upon
which you took

it's left you empty again
with nothing to begin
cause its a dead end

your heart stirs
for something
but nothing registers
in your dieing heart

so you throw
out the window,
hopes for better days

and you settle
it's all mental,
feelings in your chest

so upon the path you walk
you've done things you shouldn't talk,
about let it all out,

used to think people could
things to do i would
but i hardly did what I should

so i try slepin here,
but the dreams unclear,
push me to this tear

the world goes on
and the path upon
which you took

it's left you empty again
with nothing to begin
cause its a dead end

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(no subject) [Jul. 10th, 2005|03:22 am]
Seems like a good time to go out of town, everyone one else has lately, so I say... BYE BYE! I am out of this joint. I leave for colorado in a few hours.
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